Father's Day

I always find myself filled with mixed emotions on days like today. Holidays that celebrate our families often bring up bad memories and heartache. I know in my head that I'm supposed to forgive, but sometimes the hatred that I've allowed to fester inside my heart controls my thoughts. This is a battle I'm always fighting to win. It's a tool satan uses to take me down quickly. It's how I succumb to my earthly wishes.

Thankfully God is continuing to break down the concrete walls I've built up around my heart and is freeing me from the hatred that has coursed through my veins. The road towards forgiveness is not easy, but I can testify that it is worth the grueling work. There are days when I'm sick of fighting to control my emotions, but I know I never want to go back to living a life dictated by hatred and depression.

This video nearly had me in tears as I felt my embraced by my Daddy's loving arms. I know I'll never have idyllic childhood memories of a father. It's moments like this where I'm filled with His presence that make my heart long for the day when I can sing, dance, and laugh with my heavenly Father on streets of gold. 

For now, I wait, with a thankful heart to have friends who remind me of His love for me.